Do what you love

It's already been 2 years since Steve Jobs passed away. Apple is definitely one of my favorite company, because it has brought me so many things in my life, not only their products itself, but through those products I have experienced many things and discovered so much possibilities for myself.  I am one of the millions of Apple fans, who stay up late (or wake up early depending on which timezones) to watch WWDC, have owned the iPod classics and loved the matte black feel, owned an iPhone 3G when no one else had "smart phones". 

I have to admit that I am a gadget geek, and I spend a lot of my time using Apple products during the course of my day, but Steve Jobs has made me think about other things. He made me think about careers and following your passion.

Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking. Don’t settle.

Yes, it's the famous Stanford commencement speech from 2005. 

So my question is: "Do what you love" or "Love what you do" ? 

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In my current situation, I honestly cannot say that I love what I do at work. I take pride in my work and do the best I can, but not because I love doing it. I do it because I want to be better at it. I want to feel like I'm making progress. I rarely talk about work related topics online, and I talk a lot about the things I love (tech and fashion), so when I meet someone offline who only knew the "online version" of me, people are surprised that I work at a pretty big corporate company. I decided to work here for a couple of reasons, about a year and a half ago. 

On the other hand, I love what I do outside of work.  I blog, take pictures, and make videos. I always wish I had more resources for doing them: time, money, people who can help me, etc. For now, it is mostly a hobby, and I am okay with that. I am not satisfied with the quantity and the quality of content, so I have a very long way to go and much more work to do. I don't know if I will ever be completely satisfied; it seems like something that will never end and there will always be room for improvement and scaling. 

I want to be able to say sincerely from the bottom of my heart that I do what I love, and be able to make a living off of it. That is probably the core drive I have, when it comes to career. When that becomes true, I don't know what it will actually be like. Maybe I will be a professional blogger, an Etsy creator, or a CEO of a startup. Anything is possible, as long as I can make myself happy with what I do, and what I earn from it.

When you are a 20-something-year-old-girl, living in this chaotic modern world, it's hard to predict your future. It seems like your priorities never stay the same. For me, right now it seems like my priorities list doesn't look like an aligned list. It's like a branched out mess with if-this-then-this-options scattered all over the place, and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one. 

So I am going to keep looking, and I will never ever settle.